stillborn

love of my life

2008-07-27T19:37:05Z

shes already doubled in size since these were taken 2 months ago. shes 4/12 months old and already 30lbs+. and shes a mix of my favorite doggies.... rottwieler, siberian husky, german shepard. :)

kendy @ 2008-07-23T16:01:00

2008-07-23T21:20:13Z

right now charlie, ben, jake, and jack are playing majik the gathering on my living room floor. boring!

ive been in a cooking mood lately. last night i made red pepper, garlic, and pesto sautaed asperagus in olive oil over fetacinii with motz cheese sprinkled over it and marinated chicken breasts. this morning i made eggs, bacon and toast, and for lunch an hour ago i made ultimate nachos. it would be cheaper than eating out if i didnt have too many people over to feed. blah.

so broke. considering different options... but if i change anything in my life it will be in at least a year. i really wat to make this hair thing work. i dont want to go to college but if i dont start bringing in a decent income i might have to. meh.

cutest fucking dog ever.

2008-06-21T03:26:38Z

she's about to outgrow the basket, but its okay cause she can run 2/3 miles next to my bike already. :)

fort waste mass exodus

2008-06-10T15:15:21Z

everyones leaving or left. ben hopped a train a month or 2 ago therefore systematic overthorw is done. its all good tho cause im in a new thrash band kickin it oldschool thrash style... kinda a cross between slayer, dri, metallica (old only) and a bit of d-beat thrown in there too.

nolan and nick hopped a train last monday. nicole and martha are in wyoming visiting sally and matty. nicole plans on moving there for a while. christina was only here a few weeks and went to california. brenton and joe are backpacking europe.

and im here. working my ass off. im my own boss now. i rent a booth at the salon. moneys a little bit better but not much. oh well. i need to go to the supply house and get more hot pink hair dye and stuff for work.

i think i might go to cedar point this summer and ride a shit ton of rollercoasters. its only 3 hrs away. we were thinking about getting a bunch of people to go and split hotel rooms and have an alcoholocaust weekend.

-kendy

puppy power!

2008-06-10T14:53:29Z

i have a new love in my life. her name is ruby and she is a 3 month old rotweiler husky puppy. cutest thing in the universe. she rides in the basket on the front of my bike, and can run next to me when i ride too. she's really smart, and naturally guards my things. ive had her for about a month now. im in love.

kendy @ 2008-03-02T03:29:00

2008-03-02T08:40:44Z

things seem surreal. i took myself off my medications cause i felt read to for a long time... and im fine. ive been on adhd/anti depressants meds forever, and its kind of amazing how much clarity i have now. so that kicks ass.

i cant wait for it to warm up so i can go on Doom riders bike rides. haha im totally getting a backpatch. fort waynes best drunken bicycle gang. im going to be able to walk to all my favorite bars and restraunts. i have a feeling i'll be at the dash in and pint&slice all the time.

systematic overthrow is dying. we're having a final show sometime in march. i want to play it at the harrison house cause we had all our best shows there... including our first show ever when we played with STATE. damn they let us play a lot of good shows there... asschapel, catheter, facedowninshit, wartorn, appilation terror unit. those were some of my fav bands to play with... i also liked playing with Question(even though i think the band as a whole freaked them out), iskra, call the cops, plaguewielder, moonshine. and i dont think any tour any bands i will ever be in will compare to our first one when i woke up in kansas to find sturges, and brad minus from Leftover Crack to be there, smoking weed and taking shots with them. being in the band has by far been one of the best experiances of my life. no regrets.
:)

<3 kendy

kendy @ 2008-02-13T03:14:00

2008-02-13T08:15:36Z

life has been good lately.
things with the band are starting to pick up again
we're trying to play clit fest.

haha i have my angry pants on.

moved

2007-12-28T23:52:41Z

i now live in west central. i have a badass apartment in the oldest house on the street (built in the 1800s). Its a 2 bedroom and i live with my friend Jen. So far i havent even seen my roomate since i moved in, so its kind of like living by myself. I still have some shit i need to get, but its come together really well. i still have to unpack some shit. im kind of procrastinating though. if i do have a house warming thing i think i'll just have a couple boxes of junk im getting rid of for everyone to go through before i donate it to the free market. lots of the stuff came from dumpsters, haha but they served their purpose for the time that ive had them. im probably going to go home now and unpack some more cause chaz is playing friday night magic. dont ask.

<3 kendy

packing

2007-12-17T02:57:16Z

I got an apartment with my friend jen in west central. im really excited. i know a shit load of people in that neighborhood and its super close to everything downtown. it's a really nice 2 bedroom, and it even has a fireplace! haha i'll post pics when im all situated and stuff im sure.
packing sucks. ive been slowly working on it and i hate it. blah. i have way too much shit. too many books really. but i dont want to get rid of any of them. :( im giving all my zines to the FWCAN zine library infoshop thingy. i'll probably give everything i dont want away at the next free market. might as well right?

Last night was fun. Huge snowstorm. Charlie, Nolan, and myself went to the bar anyway. got a little buzzed, and smoked a little. Certain people got a little wild so we headed home around 2 or so. After I dropped everyone off i ended up blaring the slayer Reign in blood album, and drove home in 4 or 5 inches of snow (i guess it was a level 3 snow emergency?). All i know is that it was the most epic drive ive ever had. I felt like a total badass. No one on the roads, snow everywhere and you max out at 35mph otherwise you loose control. total fun. :)

christmas is almost here and im unprepared. maybe i wont give everyone presants this year. kinda makes sense since only 1/6 of them return them anyway. oh well. I'll probably end up doing it anyway.

-k

family foxes

2007-11-22T16:41:39Z

these are pics i just got from my cousin today on thanksgiving. my grandmother wilma is the 1st 2, back in her modeling days, and the 3rd is my mother right about in her modeling days as well, standing with my greatgrandmother. :)

i wish i looked more like them. :)

awesome

2007-10-31T22:53:18Z

happy halloween!

funny things happen. i was getting all down in that last entry about not being able to find an affordable place to live, and what happens? the next day a friend called me and offered me a spot in a badass house with cool people for hella cheap! hopefully we'll all move in in about a month or 2.

life rules

random points

2007-10-29T06:21:02Z

-been trying to keep myself in check and out of trouble lately.
-got in trouble a bit back, but i think im almost good again.
-definately need to cut back spending on pretty much everything and save.
-until i can get ahead moving will be postponed for a while.
-fuck health insurance.
-not feeling as social lately. maybe its cause no one calls.
-i would normally be depressed right now this time of the season but im doing well so far. despite some hurdles ive been pretty happy.
-i think ive made it the longest its been without real drama in a long time. and im always trying to keep it that way.
-ive been hanging out with some awesome people lately. people i havent seen in a while and people i see all the time.
-30 days of night RULES
-about ready to get rid of a lot of posessions probably.

sleep
work
cigarettes
poker
drink
eat
sleep

-kendy

general life update

2007-10-14T04:45:44Z

- poker. Ive finally learned how to play texas hold em and am not too bad at it. :) now im addicted.

-still looking (half assed) for an apartment. not in too big of a rush

-playing at Ladyfest on Nov 10th @ the rail. should be fun. every band has females

-Fort Wayne Free Store- frimans square every 3rd sunday of the month. bring all unwated random stuff, and get stuff you need/want. (winter jackets and clothes were requested). I got some decent stuff last time, and brought a box or 2 to share. free food too.

-still havent won the lotto... yet

-spending a little more alone time lately, and its mostly spent reading. Its refreshing.

-kendy

johnny appleseed

2007-09-05T04:46:17Z

who else is as excited as me for johnny appleseed fest on the 15th? I look forward to it all year. hand carved bone beads, suade hides, old fashioned chicken and dumplings with real cherry bark rootbeer, peacock feathers, and about a million other things i can only get once a year. :) im saving up, haha

kendy @ 2007-09-03T00:29:00

2007-09-04T04:41:59Z

ive been coasting along lately. i feel like my life has such a pattern and routine right now. a set schedual every week, same days off and whatnot. i miss having band practice. i feel like writing new songs lately, but since all the amps got stolen its pretty hard to practice, let alone figure out what we're going to do for shows. we're only booking 2 within the next 3 months so we dont have to keep borrowing everyone's stuff. we pulled one off the other night without practicing for a few weeks, and it wasnt bad. celebrated with dumpsterdived pizza afterwards and had a good time. i think dumpstering pizzas is the easiest way in the world to feed bands, unless theyre grossed out by it, which is rare. im tired.
-k

kendy @ 2007-08-27T00:38:00

2007-08-28T04:46:02Z

the movie stardust was awesome. i wasnt disappointed for once having read the book before seeing the movie. i think its cause neil gaiman was involved with the movie too. :)

show tomorrow night at the berlin. theres all kinds of crazy drama involving that place lately... so i dont really know if everything will run smoothly tomorrow or not. hopefully it will. betty sue aside and the flashattacks are playing with us. :)

kendy @ 2007-08-20T19:32:00

2007-08-20T23:38:46Z

it seems like every time I get a tarot reading, or even shuffle with cards this is the one that is always me. the queen of cups.

im content right now even though my life is at a standstill, waiting for something to happen. im apartment hunting but im taking my time. my stress is way down and im trying to center myself. maybe i'll start exercising and stuff too... but i know im too lazy when it actually comes down to it.

kendy @ 2007-08-01T11:00:00

2007-08-01T18:06:32Z

tour is a blast so far. im chilling out at the newington house in baltimore right now with ferg. we stayed at the barclay house on monday night and hung out with everyone. we played the show last night at this pretty cool space in a huge ass apartment thing. haha we didnt have to use stairs cause we could just load all our shit on an elevator. friday we played indy at will's house, saturday we played cincinati at this place called the skull lab. and on sunday night we played at a bar called "not thats class" in cleveland. we're doin a lot better on gas money this year cause we're not in the bus and have will's van. we're chillin out here in baltimore for another day, then we're headed to dc for 2 days and then west virginia. we've had some rediculous adventures and drinking episodes so far, all in good fun. we've learned some important lessons like you cant play drums while your stoned or shitfaced, you can sing drunk cause i move around more, and ben cant play guitar without drinking, haha. poor chaz.
welp we've got some pizza on its way. we've had pizza every day so far, haha!

-kendy

so it goes

2007-07-16T05:32:32Z

ive been feeling secluded lately.
i miss hanging out with a lot of people
but no one really calls anymore.
but then again i dont really call either.
i guess its cause i dont really feel welcome anymore.
but what can you do?
so it goes.

kendy @ 2007-07-06T00:35:00

2007-07-06T04:38:08Z

there is chaos errupting all over, and i am totally calm. it feels weird.

i think after tour i am going to go apartment shopping.

kendy @ 2007-06-29T00:58:00

2007-06-29T05:14:10Z

monday night we played at the harrison house. it was really fuckin fun. i forgot how much i love playing there. we always have our best shows there. we played with Nux Vomica. we took them out to the brass rail after the show. they ended up stocking the jukebox full of 80s new wave, and lots of bowie and prince. the dance party was amazing. haha i have pics from it but im too lazy to upload them right now.

im booking a tour right now for s//o. damn its a little more difficult than i figured it would be but so far its coming along. i need to get my ass in gear with it though otherwise it will be a pretty short tour. i dont really know that many contacts on the east coast. 1/3 of the bands we know and are friends with are from baltimore. haha so that show will be a blast cause hopefully we'll see a lot of familiar faces from the past few years. haha i think we have a bunch of different places we could stay there to... maybe i should book an extra day for that show, haha. im excited though to re-unite with plaiguewielder (although they wont be a band anymore) and moonshine, the guys from... fuck i cant remember the other 3 bands names haha. stoner. whoops.

it seems like everyones getting married and settleing down lately. its kind of overwhelming to think about. my sister and hugh are starting to make plans, and i will be taking part in their hand-fasting ceremony in a few weeks. my friends debbie and steven are engaged, cassie, mindy, and a few others are pregnant. im excited for all of them and wish everyone the best of luck... but it will be a long while before i take any of those steps. my mom got married when she was 21. i cant really immagine being married right now. craziness.

i have nothing interesting to say so im going to sleep. night
--kendy

kendy @ 2007-05-18T21:26:00

2007-05-19T01:31:24Z

im sitting outside firefly coffee shop right now with my laptop because i am bored. charlie started working nights so durring the week nights between 5-9 im probably bored... so you should call me. haha

my grandads funeral is on sunday. im not dreading it as much as i thought i would. i already got the family only showing out the way, and he's already creamated. it's always hard seeing someone youve known your whole life's lifeless body just laying there. my whole family is in town and staying at my house, so needless to say its pretty hectic. i did everyones hair today after work so they could look good at the funeral. my uncle brad is in town and im actallu really happy to see him becasue his health has been a mojor issue lately. weve almost lost him a couple times this past year, and he lives in arizona so im glad i get the chance to see him again.

welp thats about it.
-k

kendy @ 2007-05-16T01:23:00

2007-05-16T05:29:39Z

pics from recently

21st b-day at the brass rail

this ones just weird

kendy @ 2007-05-15T20:26:00

2007-05-16T00:35:52Z

rest in peace ROBERT ISAACS, my grandfather
he died today after it was realized that the respirator was the only thing keeping him alive. he went in to the hospital on my birthday, a month ago. it was in his will that if he was being kept alive by machines to pull the plug. so about an hour after the plug was pulled he passed away.

so i found that out beofre i went to work today. at work i did the most stressfull color ive ever done in my life. im finishing it tomorrow. fuck any of you out there that want to go from black to platinum blod in 1 day. it aint happening. on top of that i spilled pop all over a new cream colored shirt before i went in to work and didnt have time to change, and i left my car windows cracked to air it out only to leave work durring a total downpoar. so now i still have to go wipe off all the drums in the backseat and hope that the guitar didnt get wet.

at 8:00 toight was the first time i was able to let everything sink in. i am completely numb.

kendy @ 2007-04-25T00:54:00

2007-04-25T05:09:06Z

priorities are so crazy. they change so often. 6 months ago mine were stupid. ive come a long way in a short ammount of time. i still have a lot of things to work on, but im actually starting to like myself for the first time a long time. i dont really let myself be effected by stupid shit as much anymore. i feel kind of disconnected from a lot of people... but im still a hell of a lot happier than when i was more social. its nice being able to see people i havent seen in a while, and start to become myself again. sometimes i get so depressed i forget who i am. ive made my surroundings more positive and avoid all the shit talking about others. i never want to fall into that habbit again, or into friendships based on it. theres so much more to life.

i might be moving out this summer. not for sure yet but its in consideration. ive been stockpiling everything i'll need. i need to start boxing some stuff up, my bedroom is nothing but piles.

im going to sleep, night

-k