same old same old
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I feel like every time I find my way back to this website I make a post about how long it has been, a basic bullshit synopsis of what I've been doing and don't post again for a few more years. So here is something real.
I have been alone for years now. It's not that I hate dating exactly, but kind of. The last relationship I had was short and toxic and I got out before it got any more emotionally abusive than it was drifting towards. I took some time off of dating so I could re-set my priorities and become more centered in who I am and what I want. A year or so later I felt fairly content in my progress and started looking around for someone to spark my interest. A few interesting people popped up here and there but by the time I entered full blown crush mode I was already talking myself out of it before they ever became aware. So here is the pickle I'm in... I have found contentment in myself for the first time in my life and the only thing I fear can alter that is love. I'm lonely, but not desperate. I'm independent and don't have time for someone who only knows how to function as a co-dependent. So I wait. I stay home. I enjoy time with my friends. I cook and watch movies. I have conversations with men who I am intentionally not flirting with because at this point I don't even remember how. I still have hope at finding a partner some day, I just don't feel like jumping into something because someone is interested in me.

Life update
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I wonder if anyone still uses these things? Or if anyone I know from here is still around?

I'm 29 now. It feels weird that I'll be 30 in 2016. I'm not freaking out like a lot of people I know do, just kind of fascinated by the passing of time.

I live in a cute house with my friend Cody, my dog Ruby and his dog Hans. I like to grow tomatoes and peppers but there's not much sun in the back yard. I got a few so at least I know I'm capable of not killing plants.

I'm not in love with anyone. I'm not opposed to finding it eventually but searching seems pointless. I'm not lonely but rather content for the first time possibly ever.

I still do music. I'm in a band called the Snarks. Www.thesnarks.com It's been pretty fun. Road trips on the weekends, decent crowd response out of town.
I'll post some random photos I suppose.


what a long way to go...
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I forgot all about this until my friend told me she was reading entries from 10 years ago. What a crazy thing it is to have who I was and what I have morphed into available for people to read in the internet.

I'm 26 now. Single. Live alone with my dog Ruby. I sing in a band called TIMBER!!! and we are releasing our first full length LP on vinyl this Friday. http://www.timberisaband.com


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day 07 – your best friend
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I have 2.

Lyndsie - We met on fort wayne music message boards in 2002. I gave her a ride to a show when I was 16 and she was 14. We were the only 2 that didn't smoke pot that night and we've hung out regularly ever since.

Cassie - Met through livejournal because she recognized me from what Lyndsie had told her about me at lunch. I picked her up one day and we drove around and hung out listening and singing along to bikini kill.

Both of them have been my besties since I was 16. We got into trouble together, made out with boys at shows, lied to our parents and told them we were staying at each others houses and went to parties instead. We've watched each other grow, had our quarrels, and introduced new friends to each other. I know that if Im ever having a shitty day i can call one or both of them and they will make me feel better. We don't hang out 24/7 like we used to because we all have a lot going on in our lives, but i can happily say that weve managed to stay tight over the course of 8 years.

catching up....
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day 05 – your definition of love

Love is when you can understand and accept someone's faults and still want to be with them all the time anyway.

day 06 – your hobbies

I like singing, dancing, writing, acting, sketch comedy, and watching movies.

4. YOUR MUSIC
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well for starters... here's links to all the bands ive been in/am in that have pages.
TIMBER!!! 2010-now
http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/TIMBER/113719241986526?ref=ts
Utah Spirit Babies 2008-present
http://www.myspace.com/utahspiritbabies
Systematic Overthrow 2005-2008
http://www.myspace.com/systematicoverthrow

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your parents
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My parents names are Glenn and Stacey. Read more...Collapse )

sum
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This summer has been hilarious, disappointing, frightening, lovely, joyous, agonizing, and amazing.

Some things didn't pan out the way I wanted them to, but in the end it's for the best.
Other things came by surprise and are amazing.
And then there are the things that won't stop haunting me... I hate situations where I have absolutely no control and no matter what I want to do, I know nothing will help. I am completely at loss. My black dress is freshly ironed and ready to go.

As the season starts to slowly fade away into the fall I have very few regrets.

-Kendra

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I feel like I'm walking on eggshells wearing combat boots.

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spiders in bedroom = 3 sleepless nights.

TIMBER!!! is playing at the rail tomorrow with prizzy prizzy please. I think after the show Im going to try to not go there so often. It's becoming too much of a familiar habbit and I'm sick of it. Luckily I haven't gotten caught up in any drama or anything... but I intend to keep it that way so that's probably the best way. Also I'm getting a little sick of some of the gross propositions I've been getting lately. Yes I get drunk, but I still have inhibitions, and I'm not just another barfly for all the drunks to pass around. So I'm pretty sure I'm definitely not going to get laid for a long time... and I'm more than happy about it! haha

on lighter notes:
-kickball on Sundays is my new favorite thing. good people, goodtimes, and good vibes. :)
-started taking my camcorder around more and some hillarious shit has been captured on video.
-going to try to start crafting again.
-still need to finish unpacking... but it's getting there!

-kendy

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